*Sigh*
Things are a tad lil bit rough at the moment...looking for places to stay, what to do with my security license (where I'll need those three referees), job prospects, uni...mum's not so happy with me at the moment either...and yes, I did make mistakes...but which 18-24 year old hasn't at sometime, or anyone else for that matter? I believe, in my honest opinion (better believe it), that it is important to make mistakes. The question then, is what you will learn from those mistakes?
Mistakes, as discussed in the last paragraph, were made, but in doing so, new people and experiences have been had...for which, there are no words to describe...
Grace. She was a chance encounter in the line for the "New To The Coast" bus tour during O Week...I was actually not going to go on that bus at that time...but then, I missed something, and just went, "bugger it, lets"...and I met her there...and now...I can't stop thinking about her...her hair, her eyes, her smile...and I just wish I could spend more time with her and not have any consequences because of it...I know, I know...I'm at the stage where I'm questioning, "Is this lust? Or Love?" The line between is so slight and narrow it's sometimes not even there...and it's been a while since I've really felt this way...well...P was something that just happened...that was a fling...and I'm kinda glad it didn't work out...but because of her, I came up to Brissy, got to know the place a little, had fun, and in doing so, decided that I wanted to come up here...now, since that happened, I couldn't go to Brissy to do any study...the chances of meeting up with her were a little up there...so, where else to go except the Sunshine Coast? One thing to another, and here I am...
So, TL:DR, if I was given the opportunity to change anything in my life, would I take it?
No.
Don't get me wrong, I'm still stressing, but at least now, as I told her before, there's something a little bit more stable in my life than just all those things that always fail, but then somehow fall back into place and be all good...
I know, that if something more permanent happens, there will be trials and tribulations, but it's another fact of growing up...and it's a journey...some are good, some are bad, some short, others long...and sometimes, just taking that proverbial first step is everything that will be whatever...if that makes sense?!
Unfortunately, this has to come in...but only quickly...Midget is in the house...I don't know why, nor do I care, but it's funny because he's not talking to me at all (a plus), and not even making eye contact...I shall try to do so next time round...see if it's anything I should be gearing myself for...at the end of the day, I'm still going to make his life a misery......I honestly believe that he deserves it...but then again, Upper Management does have a way of making sure that people get their just desserts...
So, how's university going? It's not going too badly I guess, two assignments last week, one this week...break coming up too...:) And I'm flying off for Bathurst on Saturday...well, staying overnight in Sydney Saturday, then training it to Bathurst Sunday morning...just in time for Sunday Night Trivia at The Ox...then ten days of sorting, selling, packing....man...this is going to suck...but it has to be done...
And unfortunately...I don't get to see Grace until I come back...*sigh*...man, I'm going to miss her...I already miss her after catching up with her this afternoon...but still...
Ok...so, this is what's happening...house inspection tomorrow at 1400 (yes, I'm looking at this place which is right next to the uni...$300 a week, but Lee is moving in...), put that application in...and pray it works...visa medical at 1100 Friday, going to part ways with that $1700...assignment due by 1600...flying for Sydney Saturday at 1610, arriving in approximately 1845 local...train to Bathurst Sunday at 0720...do a little dance, make a little...oh, mountain of shit to chuck out?...Fly back to Maroochy on Wed 16 April, arrive in at about 1500, come back to the house, drop bags, get ready to go to uni that night, and hopefully run into Grace while there...Thurs, 17 Apr, go to class in the morning, and -hopefully- move house that afternoon...Friday, hand keys back, get money (or break Midgets nose, using reasonable and proportionate force, then take money), and say goodbye to Kuang, who's been an absolute champion...and a good friend...going to miss him...as well as the rest of the guys in the house...except one...but meh...
*Sigh*...why does she bat her eyes like that? Hehehe................
Be safe.
N
Who Is The Black Chinaman?
- Nick
- Kuala Belait, Brunei
- Saving someone's life is like falling in love. The best drug in the world. For days, sometimes weeks afterwards, you walk the streets, making infinite whatever you see. Once, for a few weeks, I couldn't feel the earth - everything I touched became lighter. Horns played in my shoes. Flowers fell from my pockets. You wonder if you've become immortal, as if you've saved your own life as well. God has passed through you. Why deny it, that for a moment there - why deny that for a moment there, God was you? I realised that my training was useful in less than ten percent of the calls, and saving lives was rarer than that. After a while, I grew to understand that my role was less about saving lives than about bearing witness. I was a grief mop. It was enough that I simply turned up. Living and working back in Brunei, after a 14 year absence... Also known as: Brunei, NASA, Bruise-Eye, Bru, Cheesecake, Nick, BruNick, BruMedNick, Two Step etc etc etc
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