Today's Good Friday, a day of obligation...I should be going to church...I'm seriously feeling like crap though...this bug is seriously hitting me for six, and my back and shoulder are killing me still...grrr...going to fast though until at least 1500...unless I faint before hand...
Another week down, as is nearly March...I've been up here now for five weeks...I've paid an idiot too much money for the size of my area, and I dare say he will probably be getting phone calls from the ATO and Queensland Tenancy people...problem is though, he's an accountant, so the money would probably disappear...but nothing like witnesses....hehehe *EG*
Well, I guess I can eat the last of the tuna casserole, it is three days old...and cook up some fish for tonight's dinner...make some chips from the spuds I have left...mmm...
Spent another afternoon with Grace...albeit one and a half hours in a bus that went through the university twice...hehe...I know she reads this, but it's my blog...I'm not sure what to do at the moment...there is so many things going on in my life...I found out this week that my medical appointment has been switched to 04 Apr 08...so, that's a Friday, as opposed to Monday week...so, while that gives me more time to figure out where the money's coming from, I'm also in a bit of a doozie...04 Apr is also my last day of uni before the mid semester break...I fly out for Sydney on 05 Apr...I've got one assignment due in that night for Contemp Oz, and a final class for Skills in the morning...so, I've got to skip that class again and go to this bloody doctors appointment...luckily enough, I'm going to get a medical certificate, so they can's bash me on this one...anyhow...got that security course going, and even though it's great, it's taking a toll too...then I'm now reverting back to uni too, obviously I've got to do homework for both schools, then thinking about what to cook and all that....ok, I've been bad this week, I've started going back to fast foods again too, but then again, it's so, so much easier than having to haul the shopping back home for 20 minutes and then having to prepare and cook...I mean, I love cooking, and people love my cooking, but sometimes I just want to eat, sit down and be fat......"I feel so dirty, but it felt and tasted so good...!"
So, crux of the situation; I want to be lazy...to, as I put it to someone last night, "idle by the side of the highway", for a few days (which I sort of can't due to the fact I have two assignments due in this week), just pig out on junk food, sleep, smoke, drink a few rums, but not to inebriation, and just relax...next week is the last week of the security course, so, the week after, theoretically I can be licensed and working...but not before I get my fucking visa...which is I think mid April...fuckers...I honestly wonder if I should contact the Ombudsman and say that they are charging unreasonably high prices for a simple report...it's fucking expensive for any normal person, as opposed to a uni student...and this is someone I've never met in my life too...fuck it...
Ok...I'm trying to get to this point in the blog...but I keep getting sidetracked...but it's all relevant in its little ways...
Grace...
Hell, I'm not sure what to make of what's going on at the moment...
She informed me, in the nine days we've had each others phone numbers, I've messaged her 80 times...so, I'm going to be nice, and back off...I said that I would be a friend to her, and I will be, as I normally am to a lot of people...but in doing so as well, I've gotten to know her slightly better too...and it's too early to say anything...but talking to some of the security guys and housemates, they were saying she's gorgeous and happy and all that...and to an extent, I was beginning to be seeing her as more than a friend too...but am now too realising, I've got to back off....
We had a chat on Wednesday night, and we laid out our differences and discussed the plan of action...as with all well laid plans, the moment of implementation sees that plan go straight out the window...
*Sigh* It's going to be four days...I'll let her decide what she wants to do...I know she's not good at making decisions, and if I could make certain decisions, it'll definitely be a wrong decision for someone...
Ok, self pity and confusion over...
Found out that Midget is not going to be here this weekend! Four days of peace and quiet...he's taken his kids camping, so they might be back Monday afternoon, but at least he's not fucking here this weekend...Gwen is though, but she's nice...then again, some nice people (especially when it comes to money) are totally different at the end of the experience...
I'm beginning to feel faint...I wonder if Hot Cross Buns are allowed to be used to break the fast?
Be safe.
N
Who Is The Black Chinaman?
- Nick
- Kuala Belait, Brunei
- Saving someone's life is like falling in love. The best drug in the world. For days, sometimes weeks afterwards, you walk the streets, making infinite whatever you see. Once, for a few weeks, I couldn't feel the earth - everything I touched became lighter. Horns played in my shoes. Flowers fell from my pockets. You wonder if you've become immortal, as if you've saved your own life as well. God has passed through you. Why deny it, that for a moment there - why deny that for a moment there, God was you? I realised that my training was useful in less than ten percent of the calls, and saving lives was rarer than that. After a while, I grew to understand that my role was less about saving lives than about bearing witness. I was a grief mop. It was enough that I simply turned up. Living and working back in Brunei, after a 14 year absence... Also known as: Brunei, NASA, Bruise-Eye, Bru, Cheesecake, Nick, BruNick, BruMedNick, Two Step etc etc etc
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