-LAST BLOG FROM BRUNEI-
< WAR CRY >ARGH!!! COME ON, YOU BASTARDS, WHAT HAVE YOU GOT IN STORE FOR ME!?!?< / WAR CRY >
*Phew* I feel marginally better now, not much, but better...I STILL DON'T WANT TO GO! I want to stay home, read, cook, not talk to anyone (except online) and chill; I don't feel like being back in the groove, I don't need deadlines or socio-political bullshit from people with egos, power struggles or any form of shit in copious amounts, I don't like Ref food or take out or stuff that I cook myself - I want home cooking, made with the Mothers' Touch...AHHH!!!
I absoloutely hate packing up...worst thing in the world...you realise how much you're leaving behind...or how much you're taking with you!!! And there's the problem of not taking the importaint thing and missing out on stuff because of the lack of equipment...DOUBLE AHHH!!! So, here I am, running around packing what ever I need and blogging, and talking to Kate and sending her The Who's "Who Are You?" song (theme from CSI)...and burning what's left of my songs...haven't been able to add the latest songs to my list, so I'll have to do that later in Australia (hopefully)...argh...why today, of all days?!?!
Chinese New Year Eve today too...going to miss out on lots of fun...again...haven't been home for CNY for abot 3 years now...which is a shame...I kinda miss going to the Big House and pigging out on all the food and stuff there, then tomorrow going to church early and going visiting the relos around town, or them visiting the House...and just enjoying the holidays...kinda like Christmas...
So here it is...eight more months to go...opportunities all over the shop...am I ready for this? Am I ready for the world (or better yet, is the world ready for me???) ;)
< WAR CRY >HELL YES!!!< / WAR CRY >
And on that note, we cue the music...
*Insert Appropriate Music Here*
You'll see me when you see me...but not if I see you first...
Peace out
-Nick, signing off...-
Who Is The Black Chinaman?
- Nick
- Kuala Belait, Brunei
- Saving someone's life is like falling in love. The best drug in the world. For days, sometimes weeks afterwards, you walk the streets, making infinite whatever you see. Once, for a few weeks, I couldn't feel the earth - everything I touched became lighter. Horns played in my shoes. Flowers fell from my pockets. You wonder if you've become immortal, as if you've saved your own life as well. God has passed through you. Why deny it, that for a moment there - why deny that for a moment there, God was you? I realised that my training was useful in less than ten percent of the calls, and saving lives was rarer than that. After a while, I grew to understand that my role was less about saving lives than about bearing witness. I was a grief mop. It was enough that I simply turned up. Living and working back in Brunei, after a 14 year absence... Also known as: Brunei, NASA, Bruise-Eye, Bru, Cheesecake, Nick, BruNick, BruMedNick, Two Step etc etc etc
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